swallowing suns

(c) 2011-2012 'Safira B'

"anxiety-ridden nails dig into plush pillow
                   corners, unseen
     eyes tracking the curve of a thigh
             shallows and shadows of a back
that carries no weight and too much weight
                                      at once.

a simmering slow smile
                           and wink
                                  and blink
                                            lips tugged by teeth
                                                  ((don't let them see))"

i wasn't married then
                                 - lagi -
                                              yet
                                                     again
                             i'm not married now - lagi - either.
                          (a warning or a reminder or a promise;
                               neither of you know anymore)

"averted eyes,
slow, quick flash of pink                                                          (thud, thud of shared blood)
        and s m i l e.

                                                        he's not as pretty as the others
                                                        but you want to shove starlight under his skin
                                                        and watch the flames lick his insides."